Fully Surrendered!

Yes, I have finally fully surrendered the entire situation with my mom to the Lord. I knew that something was wrong lately because I just couldn't read my Bible because everytime I did the word "trust" would jump out at me. I thought I was trusting, but the Lord through my boyfriend opened my eyes to what I was really doing. I was holding on to my mom and was trying to carry the weight of it all on my own and in my own strength. I really wasn't trusting at all. It was hurting my devotions (reading the Bible and praying). Last night, I called Drew (my sweet boyfriend) and confessed to him that something wasn't right and I couldn't figure out exactly what. Well, he asked me questions and shared some things with me....he didn't get real preachy, just told me exactly what I needed to hear. He knows me so well. Sometimes it feels like we share the same heart! Like even though we are hudreds of miles apart right now cuz he is at school and I am at home we still have the most amazing bond! I just completely broke last night. My eyes were opened to what I was doing to myself. And I surrendered. I surrendered everything to the God of the Universe who created me and knows my every thought and knows what tomorrow will bring. As soon as i did all I knew was complete peace. I understand now what the Bible calls "the peace that passes all understanding". I am experiencing it now even as I type this!
Yes, I don't know what the future holds for my mom, or what this cancer is going to do, but there is one thing that I do know....God is in complete control. He already knows what is going to happen and no matter what happens He will always be there for me to comfort me and lead me down His chosen path! What An Awesome God We Serve!